Don’t deny who I am

  I have never been ashamed of my disorder. Shame was never the reason for me to bury my pain deep within my soul. Shame is not why I swallowed my tears and put on a brave face. Shame is not why I smile despite my brain was screaming. I was afraid people would see … Continue reading Don’t deny who I am

The Burden of Depression: This is Real

The sun is shining. The birds are chirping. My kids are running and laughing in the background. And here I am trapped in a bubble where my heart is unable to enjoy any of it. My kids are clean and feed. My dishwasher is running. I even did a load of laundry. I function. Barley. … Continue reading The Burden of Depression: This is Real

Mom said there would be days like this

There I was, like every mother before me, crumpled on the bathroom floor, sobbing as my children pounded on the door. The scales had finally tipped and I could not fight the tears any longer. Repeating to myself over and over about how I can’t do this anymore. Resisting the urge to get my car … Continue reading Mom said there would be days like this